White lilies in my hallway. My family never had white lilies at home, they were called funeral flowers. I love them.

I'm resting today, fighting a cold. Also, I got the news that a friend decided to leave life... Usually I don't write about those things on my blog, but today I do. He grew me this rose some years ago and I hope I will keep it alive for a long long time. It's the only plant surviving the move from Sweden to Germany (I had it with me on the plane).

View from the sofa.


The lamp is a gift from my dad, the 'Vespa' sign (you see half of it behind the lamp) is a gift from my friend who left life, the doll is a gift from my husband when we celebrated a year together.

A plant that is full of life.

My all-you-can-eat buffet.

Don't worry about me, I am fine and have such great memories of my friend - we've been down this road before so the news weren't too shocking. I hope he's happier where he is now (together with his beloved Lisa). This post is for him, we shared a quite bizarre sense of humour that I will miss :)


  1. I'm sorry, Sandra. Ellie and I are sending you lots of hugs today. xoxoxo

  2. So sorry to hear about your friend. The rose is beautiful!


  3. nice of your to share both the ups and downs in life.

    my mother always said the same thing about white lilies. love them too.


  4. I´m so sorry to hear that story. A friend of mine left life at the beginning of this year - leukemia. It´s so sad. Life can be short, and we all don´t know, when it´s ending. But it shows, that we should live every single day. They´re good days!

  5. Im sorry to hear that. >:D< (though you don't know me)

  6. i´m so sorry to hear that about your friend!
    have no words.:(
    but i also hope and think that he is happy now...wherever he is!!!
    feel huged today sandra!
    and also get well soon!


  7. I remember the accident and your neighbor,
    so yes, this is not unexpected. But sad still.
    Happier New Year wishes my Swedish friend.

  8. lilies were known as funeral flowers in my home too yet I also love them and often buy them.

  9. I'm so very sorry to hear about your friend.

  10. So sorry to hear that,big hug to you!, wish you all the best, feel better soon.


  11. Hallo Sandra,

    mein herzliches Beileid schicke ich aus Berlin-Wilmersdorf zu dir in den Osten rüber. Solche Abschiede sind nicht leicht. Ich finde es schön, wie du über ihn und die Situation schreibst und die Rose ist wirklich schön.:)

    Kuriere dich gut aus und genieß die Zeit mit Johan,

    liebe Grüße,

  12. Hello, I'm so sorry... Maybe it's time to return the rose...

  13. I'm so sorry to hear about your friend. You are in my thoughts.

    You house looks so beautiful and comfortable.

  14. the most amazing thing about your blog post is the evolution of the rose. it's good to have beautiful things that people leave behind, or give you as a present. though, i am sure your friend presented you with many other things (his humor, as you say, for instance).

    it's strange how cruel life can be sometimes. and how people deal with it.

    i am very sorry for your friend. hope he is in rest now.

    feel better with your flu.

    best, n.

  15. I am so sorry about your friend too.
    Beautiful photos.
    Beautiful rose.

  16. I am sorry to hear about your friend. This post is a lovely tribute to him.

  17. Your home always looks so beautiful.
    I'm sorry to hear about your friend.

  18. :( !! Sandra, kramar till dig. Blir så lessen att läsa detta...

  19. so sorry to hear
    the always burning candle
    on our table
    is for you
    and your friend
    i remember that rose....

    from the sunny Netherlands

  20. I'm sorry about your friend taking his life away... But I believe in afterlife, and that departed ones always stay in touch <3

  21. I'm glad you feel strong and okay with the fact that your friend decided to go on his own. The good memories are worth so much. I lost my sister the same way, I feel good and sad about it intermittently. I too hope she is happier, and that somehow she can feel more the love I have for her.Thanks for sharing your acceptance and love and thoughts about his life and your friendship.

  22. gosh that's sad...i'm really glad you've got those great memories of him, though! xoxo

  23. Sandra, just saying hi and sending you good vibes. I do not know the details but I also think that it is sometimes the most wise to just accept things as they are; and focus & remember the good. Hope that cold passes soon!

  24. might be a late comment but i'm so sorry for your loss sandra.

  25. I'm sorry. Although we don't know, this message has been on my mind the last days and let me think about you.


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